Tell Tale Lore (VI): Dead Man Walking Paulo Gonçalves

I am sitting at my window and I see them walking out there. Tears drop freely upon my face. Why? I am killing just another one of them. One of hundred kills. My scope is on her head. My watery eyes do not let me focus. Why? I have a picture in my window... I can't shoot... I can't shoot another of them. Why? I put my rifle in position again and I see her face now. She has turn to me. Her mouth  is opening and closing... a remniescence of being alive. She looks upward to me. My eyes are focus on her eyes. She can't see me can she? Her posture says nothing but her eyes say "kill me"... I can't live without her....and I pull the trigger... on me!